Solitude in the Networking Age
I love to learn my lessons
all by myself.
If you only knew
the room upstairs,
where I grew up,
what names.
I have given myself,
and the distance
between two bodies in space,
you'd understand the sentiment.
The room upstairs keeps record
busies itself with transactions
a market-maker
a machine
an impeccable, efficient place;
where
I am a good person with
cracks and edges, where
I cry a lot
in self-pity and then
deny it.
It is difficult to accept
being
so absolutely alone,
in the dark,
and,
also,
in the light.
No one taught me how to survive myself
in this impossible space, and so
I look towards the screen
and screens of screens
for an echo
or some (c)ack.
©hRj 2010